01:47 Am
August 09,2008

while listening to mariah carey's version of somewhere over the rainbow as a tribute performance to the greatest patti labelle, i can't stop myself and think of the word respect... do we have that? hmmm....
i grew up with the word respect and also loving the song respect popularized by no less than the soul diva herself- Aretha Franklin.I am just so thankful that my parents raised me well, and so i am guided by this principle of love and respect. respecting myself and the people around me. i maybe harsh sometimes but it is because of people around me that trigger me to do all these...

A call to move on is posted in my real concept of what i called my sanctuary. It is very hard.. very hard in a sense that people, i already consider my past are still there, not that i am bothered with their presence, for the hell i care about them...it is just few or some of them think that it is a lost in my part of not having them in my circle. hmmp! but again i will go back to what i said earlier--- RESPECT.

I captured and hid those shoes because i respected and still respecting the ideology of passion and interest specially to those neophyte dreamers. i submitted myself to total darkness, even for a fact and surely i know, it will be a daunting task to fight and survive in this dark world. i jumped into this deep waters even for a fact i know i am drowning. i started wrapping all those memories and strands of happiness and sadness, eventually putting them to my imaginary casket and just open it if there is a need to do one... All in the glory of RESPECT. I respect the so called FRIENDSHIP.

But with all these submissions and these earth like structure of being grounded, i am caught in the middle of other things which i consider more important. Why will i continue paying attention to the cries of these wolves. their echoing sounds roamed my mind--- but i believed and agreed as to what my friend said "just leave them, and do your thing". but one thing my friend does not know is that im over him/her/them. It is just not a Claudio characteristic of a total moving on.. i always have these trademarks of doing some things, both positive and negative,( hahaha most of the time negative and so beware.)But with these bunch of wolves i will again submit myself to a total moving on because i still have that RESPECT. and hopefully it will remain in my heart because, other people think that i have too much of this respect. i just don't want that i will loose this and eventually do my turn of what i term as a sweet revenge... hahaha(witch laugh)

But again, calm down calm down... all these are plain words..(hopefully) another contradiction. hahaha... well this is a summary of what i know and what i inculcated in my self for the past 23 years. RESPECt. i know that this blog is so late for my 23rd birthday last july 21, 2008. It was overwhelming and so memorable for three reasons.
1. i celebrated my birthday with friends and i mean those special friends and people close to my heart at Forest camp Valencia. my mom and my brother came over and it was just so fitting in a sense that i can feel that there is some geographical changes that i will experience in the next months (hopefully, i lift all these things to HIM). Suzabel- a longtime friend. Alfie- a brother to me, guz-my british friend, Naddie- my angel. and also it became so meaningful when the bongcasan family came and attended my bday.
2.It was around 3:20 in the afternoon at the college of Arts and Sciences Building Room 312, while i was giving a lecture about the areas of communication, a bunch of students and friends, entered the classroom with a cake and a wine.It brought me to tears of joy and happinness. and so we ate the cake, and yes it was so fulfilling and i really can't explain the things i felt during those time.
3. I have my boardmates whom i took for granted for the past years, but hey they are the craziest and the loudest but still with genuine heart people i know... Peers who are willing to help, when a shaky life scenario will come your way. We were all drunk and we walked heading to Kyosko, after eating we headed back to our boarding house, by creating loud noise, and i mean LOUD. And also i will never forget when we did some rearrangements of the parking posts in the street. It was a chaotic yet fun filled night.

These things made a mark in my life and i will continue to cherish with gladness and respect.. for i know these will have its another touch sooner or later but with a different color yest the same strand or the same texture..

And as i say good bye... Thanks for all those who are helping and making the world a better place to live in.. God bless...