silliman university library....
july 25, 2007

i hate yesterday, for it was a long bad day....
i hate myself for not complying things at the ryt time and place...
i hate myself for i don't know how and when to say NO....
i hate myself for i try to please other people even if i don't want to please them.........
i hate one of my teachers...
i hate my labandera who sends and picks my clothes not in the secheduled time...
i hate my room for we are congested and it is so hot...
and with that they keep on playing all these PC ames until dawn..........
i hate some of the boardmates i have or most of them for they just make some noise without considering that there are people who are tired and stressed out...Grrrrrrrrrrrrr
i hate stress, but i am always in this mode...
i hate the fact the i am always in trouble with other people....si9mple exchange of thoughts and principles and discussions with anyone might lead to some trouble...
i hate seeing someone for she destroys my day and eventually makes my mood bad...
incase, i hate it coz i will be missing a lot of things this saturday if ever we will push through with our Siquijor performance...

i hate the fact that my crush doesnt find me ok... huhuhuhu

i hate it coz, i miss the chit chat and talks with razcel and lyde...
i hate it coz i miss writing poems and stories....
i hate it for many people are shocked with the change and with the move to become happy....
i hate it for why is there a need for me to experience all this things....
i hate it because i just hate the idea of something that finds me difficult to write it here....

i hate it coz i miss my home, my mom, my siblings.... i hate it coz i dont know if i am making the ryt choice in my life and i hate it for i am into different options and i am having hard time choosin the riht one... or in those choices the riht one is missing....

God help me..... mwahhhh!!!

this is just a simple picture of how troubled i am these days....
you may see the biggest smile when you see me around,,,, but its only my teddy bear and my pillows who serve as the testimonies to the pain and hurt i am experiencing now...

i hate it for why is there a need to say these things....


maybe it just satisfies me............. wah!!!!!!!!!!!!

Because of the adjusting process i am into even until now, i was not able to check and to update my blog and the events that happened to me for the past weeks... yes! i was raped by the situation and the different facets of being a teacher, student, dancer, dreamer, director, and a lover...(i guess)

- for the past weeks, i felt the shame of still asking my parents specially my mom, for financial support. it gives me the guilty feeling and as i have said the shame, buit i do not have any options... for me to live and to survive i need to swallow my pride in this matter. But fortunately after a month of teaching, i will be receiving my first honorarium. which is on the other hand, enough to pay my rentals, food, and some paper documents that i need. Help me!!!!

- for the past weeks, i conditioned my mind the need for me to change.Change for my bettermnent! Change in the way i look, the way i act, the way i carry myself, and totally the way i envision myself 3 to 5 years from now. I am part of the Academe and much more of the Silliman's credible roster of educators. i need to develop a new lifestyle, to adhere to the different demands of the profession and my other responsibilities and duties. It is hard but so far i am changing and i am trying my best to be worth it of the said titles i have in my belt.

- for the past weeks, i was able to strenghten the good communication with my siblings and my family. the comfort and support we share in the diferent points of our individual lives. the love and the open communication give us the better understanding and the promise that we will stand together till the end of time.

- for the past weeks, i met new friends, established new bonds and new circles of great and crazy species. Some remained, developing a higher level of the so called friendship. Some had little misunderstandings and hatred.... yes, i miss some of those old friends who are now more or less acquaintances or strangers, but as what my friend said while giving a negative feedback about me. "Claudio is the type of person that finds difficulty in tying loose ends". and i agree with him while he described me with those words. i guess there are just very few of those good things that we need to end. I learned a lot form those incidents and indeed, giving me some lessons, amidst the pain; smiles amidst the tears;promises amidst the said and the unsaid words; and lastly violations among the cautions and warnings. Miss you all....

- for the past weeks, i am enjoying the texting relationship with someone, who is now in manila. I met him here in dumaguete. we text everyday, 24 / 7. i met him sunday night,while studying at a snack shop, then by tuesday he left and went back to manila. with that meeting we are trying our best to work things and in the situation that we are in right now. i really do not believe in such relationship(long disatance) but im starting to believe it and hopefully it will blossom into something only our hearts can explain.

- for the past weeks, i found another person that gives a deeper meaning to waht i will term my identity - my preference. most likely i underwent the same process before but i guess, i alike HER! for my friends for sure, you will freak out the moment you read this. but hopefully you will understand... lyde i hope you understand.... mwah@!@!@

- for the past weeks, i am trying to look for more and deeper reasons of staying here in dumaguete. it is not that i am not enjoying my teaching stint here. actually i feel so blessed and honoured being part of the Silliman's faculty team, but it is just that i am trying to ask my self the concepts of contentment and happiness. i am happy but not contented! and i think it happens to us, we never feel contented with all the things that we have. also, im trying to know, if this is really what i want to do. im trying my best to fall in love with the MA i am taking now. its just that i am not into it i guess. Thanks to Maam Gina, she is one great and eefective teacher that helps me in tying my passion to what i am studying now.

- for the past weeks, i missed writing poems, having a long chitchat with ratzel and lyde, going to beaches and rivers, and all other crazy things.

-for the past weeks i immersed my self to the internet. watching mariah carey, whitney houstons, etc videos. and alos checking my mails, friendsters and other wild, and crazy things. aside from the required assignments and related readings that i need to get from the internet.

i still have a lot to say and to add here, but my time is over and i ned to go...

i miss my smart textmates. dont you worry most likely i will be back toimorrow and i will be back with great enthusiasm and joy for i miss you a lot!!!! Nyko, mky, king and my sister!!!!

wah!!!!

thanks for the friendships guys... i love you all!

hello!

after a long silence due to the political disturbances back in my very majestic province of basilan, i am no alive and kicking to be here again in the City of Gentle people, with a lot of enthusiasm and excitement....

next week will be a great week for i will be starting my teaching profession, that is if i will pass the teaching demonstration and the interview that Silliman wants me to have... which i only knew this morning... so sad....but well i guess i should pass all these things... anyways.... i must do good or else i will be jobless and will be part of the bum people in the philippines... God forbid!!! anyways....

I know God has good plans for me...

and yes i am back here,, and ang daming chismaxxxx hehehe!!!!

write soon....

a poem written by my friend...

Midnight thoughts
myk credo
12 AM, May 07, 2007

Tossing and turning
i shape thoughts of you
i visualize the possibilities
of distant souls intertwined
of spirits calm and peaceful amidst chaos
of hearts beating in new rhythms
despite rough waves in between

summer nights never felt so cold
intil the feel of u ran thru my fingertips
and i could amost hear your voice calling
it gets colder by the minute
when utter silence descends
and when all thoughts remains is of you

gliding in pirouettes
in a dance
casting a spell on me

this poem is dedicated to a friend... who went on a vacation for one sem, and she is making her comeback this June... she is no other than Klen klen Virgo pataksil...

i had a nice time talking to this ghurl and wow nagkagulo at nagkalat kami sa Boston market with another chavacano kabsi--- allan!

to my critics... back to rhyming napud ko!

Poisonous Virgo

beauty....
bubbly.....
and funny
that is my collection
a treasure huge as a nation

a barbie
a candy
a sweetie
with a touch like the deer named bambie

full of substance
as she always sway
and make me dance

thank god
psshht! she is not that bad

people see her strange
but i tell you
she is one great concept of rage

people see her like a bitch
but mind you
its better than being a witch

people see her differently
but the hell i care
for she i one precious jewelry

this is my stone...
my friend...
a piece of happiness
a piece of greatness
Thanking God for a soul
that reminds me how deep his love can roll
his love in me
will always set me free, for such great creature
i will forever be thankful


klen klen, always remind me of how life is... yup, i know she has her own stupid acts... but well we love our friends no matter what and who they are!!!!

kleng! you made my day!

basilan on the go!!!!

whoa... i am back here at last... my hometown for a short vacation. yes i will be back to dumaguet for an outreach event in bicol ryt after the holy week. wel i am enjoying the company of my crazy siblings.. the long debates with my lolo and lola, the chika fever with my mom, and the straight forward (hahaha bet yah straight?) conversations with my dad. hahahah

well i havent seen my highschool friends and that will be another story...

but well the news about my grand graduation from a very prestigious university is becoming a hit, topping it in the charts! most of the peopl claims that they studied in Silliman, that their relatives grdauted there and bla bla blabla.... heheheh, that only shows how great the school is.. bt the thing is, my father is very proud of it! whoa...

anyways just dropping by, with this very hot internet cafe, with only one ceiling fan... wha! Basilan move on.... so much for that hope evrybody is haing the best of summer but before jumping out with your bikinis and shorts... please be guided with the events and activities for the holy week... specially or us Christians...

that is all.. i am longing for a new feeling... cant wait to get my pen and write another poem....

i hate with the politics here... grabe,.....

kadaghang topic oi!!!!!!!!!!

wow
a day before the formal rites of the 94th Commencement exercises, silliman university, where in i am marching together with other 800 souls and dreamers, that will later be the leaders of this country. it is just so ironic, because i don't feel like attending the ceremony, honest! even it is an honor to be leading the graduates as an honor student, aside from the fact that me and my mom are having a little of these cat fights because of some preprations for these once in a lifetym event. wah...
i think it is the fact that the concept of being an honor student and a graduate still di not sink in my mind, and i am still overwelmed with the things that happened to me... the bonding that i found with all the people , actors, and production staff from my play - Alimyon. yesterday we took and escape all the busy pedicab noise and dusty roads of dumaguete and stretched our tired bodies at a beach resort somewhere at Bacong. laughing, sharing the fun times, drinking all these holy liquids, and at the same time sharing the great cries from our hearts because of some things, that we never imagined would happen.
Mayah Dulnuan,a friend and my stage manager, a theatre person. really congratulated me on how i was able to build a new family from different souls, who just met and established a long and lasting friendship. this alone makes me feel insane... everytime i am trying to get the tought of me graduating so soon, ay ugma na diay!

wah... also the fact that i am staying here in Silliman, gives me a feeling that well i am still and will be here, so no pressure!!!!!! i will still meet my crazy collections next june.. or more or less be with them this summer..... wah! you know the concept of parting ways and leaving some great people who became part of your daily itenerary! but that missing will not have its place soon, coz as i have said i will still be here hahah! teacher na ko! so minimize drinking and party bar hopping!

i think these reason makes me feel hmmmm basta i cant explain. for sure you will agree with me that this unexplained feeling is the term we call ----- Excitement... so excited ko? am i!!!! hahahah

well thanks to all people who became and are part of my collge life. you made my collge life one of the best or i may say close to the best or the bet part of my life..... love you all...........

after the four years of waiting, nope i will include the one year escapades in the land of the rising sun - Japan...so a total of 5 crazy years in college... trying to get the most form tmy teachers, from the people around me and from the experience.... am i ready to get and fly high....?

well this question for sure haunts every college graduates, for no one really knows what is at stake for everybody out there.... it is as if going in a competition with billions of other souls trying to fit in a one seat of fame... but lately i discovered that well why will i rush in to that world if i know i would not be happy, trying to get those millions of money, yet my heart is craving for something that is always my love and my passion, and that is the world of performing arts.

whoa! it feels different having this feeling lately for i am also caught in a middle of a lot of roads whhich i am having hard time to understand... will my family be happy of the path i will be taking? are they expecting too much from me, knowing i am a sillimanian, the only in the family. humility aside, graduating with flying colours... well i really do not know. as of now, i am determined to explore more of my interests by teaching and with this be a good instrument of change with my drive to be on stage. and at the same time touching peoples lives with what i believe is great.

i am just so pleased and happy, when a cast of my play --- alimyon, Fitchy, is really becoming and making her name, in the field of stage. it is just overwelming for you know thta you help her to build more confidence and for sure she will agree with me that she learned from the expereince she gained from my play. that is really sometjhing that i will cherished for the rest of my life. seeing her yesterday at the seniors day, while doing a skit makes my heart roar and happy....

thank God for that avenue of helping me realize to really push on the limits on making a difference with what i got! well you have a talent why hide it? remember the parable of talents? that is one great fact that we should always remember when we speak of talents offereing and sharing!!

love you guys....

after the four years of waiting, nope i will include the one year escapades in the land of the rising sun - Japan...so a total of 5 crazy years in college... trying to get the most form tmy teachers, from the people around me and from the experience.... am i ready to get and fly high....?

well this question for sure haunts every college graduates, for no one really knows what is at stake for everybody out there.... it is as if going in a competition with billions of other souls trying to fit in a one seat of fame... but lately i discovered that well why will i rush in to that world if i know i would not be happy, trying to get those millions of money, yet my heart is craving for something that is always my love and my passion, and that is the world of performing arts.

whoa! it feels different having this feeling lately for i am also caught in a middle of a lot of roads whhich i am having hard time to understand... will my family be happy of the path i will be taking? are they expecting too much from me, knowing i am a sillimanian, the only in the family. humility aside, graduating with flying colours... well i really do not know. as of now, i am determined to explore more of my interests by teaching and with this be a good instrument of change with my drive to be on stage. and at the same time touching peoples lives with what i believe is great.

i am just so pleased and happy, when a cast of my play --- alimyon, Fitchy, is really becoming and making her name, in the field of stage. it is just overwelming for you know thta you help her to build more confidence and for sure she will agree with me that she learned from the expereince she gained from my play. that is really sometjhing that i will cherished for the rest of my life. seeing her yesterday at the seniors day, while doing a skit makes my heart roar and happy....

thank God for that avenue of helping me realize to really push on the limits on making a difference with what i got! well you have a talent why hide it? remember the parable of talents? that is one great fact that we should always remember when we speak of talents offereing and sharing!!

love you guys....

Escanyo, Dumaguete
March 14 2007
2:00 AM

dedicated to: Linwell, Marcus (a new friend) and my craziness

Luna

with three soul running
this vast desert of loneliness
all we could feel is emptiness
--- deep and real
but to see this one great masterpiece
as it signals the darkness sweet embrace
yet always sealed with one true kiss
as it gives spark to this deep blue fountain of life
as it caresses the feeling of pain
making us feel stupid and insane

o luna
after this exchange of mixture
--- traitor but adds us to our soul
we end up wasted and noisy
silent? shhhh
wanting to go to slumber
feel the sweet angels flying in the heaven's sky
but as we open our sight
as we take the next step in this roller coaster ride

we remember the moon
as the only witness in all acts
--- naughty or not

even for a moment
luna you made me feel blue
wanting not to stop
this interaction
this one night affair
the time
--- as it runs so fast
wait!

still we believe you will keep quiet
as we share this cup
make it a symbol
of love that is just a blaff

moon come and visit me once more
in my dream lagoon...

Wahhhhhhh

all i could do is shout and be the happiest man on earth.... for 3 reasons....

1. My play was a sucess, and im getting good reviews from it, well there are some but i will say very few of them well you can never please evryone. But as a whole the play was outstanding. I am just happy for the fact that people stayed for 2 hours and 30 minutes watching the play. and that alone is already an honor. the Luce auditorium was full. heheheh though they are required...hahahha well yon.. im done na jud with that stressful play.. and hope was able to touch peoples lives, and really brought the meaning im the consiousness of the people who watched. lets promote gender and sexula awareness!

2. i am blessed with great, friends. the Alimyon productions, would not be a sucess if not because of the help of great friends... one text away and these people will just be there, like mushrooms in the forest and sure fire, ready to take the leap on helping me in all things. i commend Richu Kung, a kahayag friend, who became my caterer, or the food incharge... i never expected he will do all those things. Thanks Chung. To aiken Quipot, still a kahayag friend, who is always hungry when it comes to the magical stage and the perfroming arts, he makes me happy all the time, and injects me all those happy and fun jokes, to get away all those wrinkles and stuffs, he helped me with the make up and other things. as i have said, i feel secure when this Bubbly creature is around. To Nonito Cuizon, who sacrificed his own personal satisfaction of watching the play, because i asked him to take the video, yon, nagpugong sya to the highest para di sya mu laugh. thanks kaayo nitz.... Mwah!

Mga friends who are always there, Ratzel, Lyde, Anna, Ger, Easter and Husband, The Weekly Sillimanian, Portal Yearbook, Outheast Asia Organization, and the Kahayag Dance Troupe. Thanks for everything. Si ate Sharon Rose Dadang, Basta tanan who helped me. the teachers who required their lambs to watch... Maam Selibio, Maam Rina Fernadez, Sir Oracion, Sir Van Peel, Sir montenegro and maam Phoebie Tan.. and all those people who helped me.

And lastly to my actors... and my mucicians, si Noy and Jerry. Grabe Grabe.. These people made and gave me another family that i will treasure the next years of my existence. the people who listened, sacrificed their precious times,their studies, their love life... grabe.. thanks and hope you gained a good experience. i will be missing you all. actually im starting to miss you na.... but well we will see if naay repeat.

Thank you all.

3. My family, papa and mama, Ate amam, biboy, nikki, iris and roy roy. Grabe jud. these people are my wealth and my pearls that i have in my pocket. you will always be the inspiration that i have to be the best/. My father, came and watched my play... kakaiba yon, though he coud not comprehend the cenuano language, still he was so happy. Mand the play menas a lot to me, because, father and mother spent their 23rd Wedding anniversary on that date, March 3..... wah!!! grabe jud... Wa na ko masay...

But above all God... thanks for the big talent... and so i know i have a big responsibility.... help me always to do the best in all things you give me... love you God, and continue make me a tool of your love!

To god be the Glory.....

Stars are that far for us to know how far our dreams can go, if we will partner it with hardwork and dedication...

Cup of life

The aroma...
the taste...
The beauty that is never a waste

Of marbles swaying on the ground
With Mother Nature soothing sound
Found these rolling pebbles
Need to blend with water's bubbles
Grinded, fine, leading and you will be blind
Like cupid's touch
With couple sensually acting in a couch
Mixed with white honey
For sure the feeling will be lively
For this is the cofee
a mixture, giving me high excstacy
in life's full of mystery
Still with this cup
I may say I'm on top
A different feeling,
as if swaying and dancing
shared with someone great being
blessed by the eternal who guides us in our living

cofee you complete me...


poem...
Silliman University Coop Store
12:36
la lang inspired lang po...
pasensya na di po ako national artist for literature...

a poem I made right after I was captivated by the beauty of sunrise and the feeling i have last December 17, 2006 in my room with a special someone in my heart!

Wat this is for you~

Sigh---
by Claudio Ramos II

With the darkness wrapped in our senses
All we feel is the lust embedded in our innocence
Yes--- we both share
This secret love affair
Intertwining of fluids
That marks the start of the quest
--- remarkable and breathless
-sigh

As we touched each other's lips
All I feel is happiness,
yet fear also dominates
For this night might end so soon
Lord, please help me and,
continue to make me bloom
- sigh

With the embrace I feel secured
An unexplainable pain that I am willing to endure
Knowing that this feeling is different
in this society's judgment
Surely, more pain will come
Out of this stage realized with ignorance and arrogance
- sigh

As i dig down into the deep
All i feel is tiresome but very complete
Giving all my best,
the hell I care about the rest
Happy --- confused
If these feelings are meant to be abused
But this night--- remarkable and breathless
--- feeling senseless
There is greater tension of what lies ahead
- sigh

With the different images of plans in mind
as I wish to look on another beautiful sunshine
Thanking for this soul and this persona
Who brought additional inspiration to me feeling artista
Don't want to open the door
Don't want to continue the movement of time
As i get into my slumber
Feeling happy - yet afraid
Confused - yet great
With this penetration into my life
Indeed, Claudio is hooked up with a huge knife
- sigh

a poem I made right after I was captivated by the beauty of sunrise and the feeling i have last December 17, 2006 in my room with a special someone in my heart!

Wat this is for you~

Sigh---
by Claudio Ramos II

With the darkness wrapped in our senses
All we feel is the lust embedded in our innocence
Yes--- we both share
This secret love affair
Intertwining of fluids
That marks the start of the quest
--- remarkable and breathless
-sigh

As we touched each other's lips
All I feel is happiness,
yet fear also dominates
For this night might end so soon
Lord, please help me and,
continue to make me bloom
- sigh

With the embrace I feel secured
An unexplainable pain that I am willing to endure
Knowing that this feeling is different
in this society's judgment
Surely, more pain will come
Out of this stage realized with ignorance and arrogance
- sigh

As i dig down into the deep
All i feel is tiresome but very complete
Giving all my best,
the hell I care about the rest
Happy --- confused
If these feelings are meant to be abused
But this night--- remarkable and breathless
--- feeling senseless
There is greater tension of what lies ahead
- sigh

With the different images of plans in mind
as I wish to look on another beautiful sunshine
Thanking for this soul and this persona
Who brought additional inspiration to me feeling artista
Don't want to open the door
Don't want to continue the movement of time
As i get into my slumber
Feeling happy - yet afraid
Confused - yet great
With this penetration into my life
Indeed, Claudio is hooked up with a huge knife
- sigh

a poem I made right after I was captivated by the beauty of sunrise and the feeling i have last December 17, 2006 in my room with a special someone in my heart!

Wat this is for you~

Sigh---
by Claudio Ramos II

With the darkness wrapped in our senses
All we feel is the lust embedded in our innocence
Yes--- we both share
This secret love affair
Intertwining of fluids
That marks the start of the quest
--- remarkable and breathless
-sigh

As we touched each other's lips
All I feel is happiness,
yet fear also dominates
For this night might end so soon
Lord, please help me and,
continue to make me bloom
- sigh

With the embrace I feel secured
An unexplainable pain that I am willing to endure
Knowing that this feeling is different
in this society's judgment
Surely, more pain will come
Out of this stage realized with ignorance and arrogance
- sigh

As i dig down into the deep
All i feel is tiresome but very complete
Giving all my best,
the hell I care about the rest
Happy --- confused
If these feelings are meant to be abused
But this night--- remarkable and breathless
--- feeling senseless
There is greater tension of what lies ahead
- sigh

With the different images of plans in mind
as I wish to look on another beautiful sunshine
Thanking for this soul and this persona
Who brought additional inspiration to me feeling artista
Don't want to open the door
Don't want to continue the movement of time
As i get into my slumber
Feeling happy - yet afraid
Confused - yet great
With this penetration into my life
Indeed, Claudio is hooked up with a huge knife
- sigh

Eat Notes
By Claudio M. Ramos II

Prepared?


Ding… Dong…ding…Dong

Few days from now, we Christians will be celebrating Christmas to commemorate the birth of our Savior Jesus Christ with our families and loved ones. Our respective homes will be decorated with different lights, lanterns, Christmas trees, and Christmas will not be complete with out Santa Clause, with his magic sleigh, reminding us to be good or else will end up receiving nothing! Also, Christmas for us Filipinos is a season that we all look forward too, the misa de gallo with puto and other native delicacies early in the morning after the mass, the exciting Pinoy Carol, the gifts form our ninongs and ninangs, Noche Buena and a lot more that makes this season very special and indeed closer to one’s Pinoy’s heart.

In Cebu, where the 12th ASEAN Summit is taking place, the Philippine government is putting its best foot forward to impress our Asian brothers, doing all the needed preparations, investing millions of money and efforts just to give a good image to the visitors as they step and be dazzled with the wonders of the Queen City of the South and the Philippine Culture and as a nation as a whole. Surely this event will boost the economic level of our nation and will place Cebu in the tourism world map. As what my high school friend studying in Cebu right now said that Cebu now is indeed having a total makeover from widening of roads, painting of buildings and the different infrastructure, the newly constructed Cebu International Convention Center, and even the training of taxi drivers, police and military men just to give these visitors an experience they will never forget. But are we really that prepared to host such event? Couldn’t we do all these developments and improvements with or with out such event?

Why am I talking about these preparations? Like Christmas, we tend to do all these gift-wrapping, decorating, merry making etc., but setting aside the real meaning of this special event. Have we ever asked ourselves, if we as a Christian are prepared for the coming of the Savior Jesus Christ? You may think that we are just commemorating Jesus Christ’s birth, but let us always remember that Jesus promised that He will be coming back for our eternal salvation.

It is with great happiness that I am considering this year’s Christmas a very merry Christmas, aside from the delicious food, the reunions, and all other gatherings of high school friends and relatives, this Christmas is full of love and joy for I am sharing it with someone special, but talking about Cupid’s arrow hitting on me deserves another article. Happy indeed! Char!!!

As we all experience, Christmas, a season where in we forget all our problems and just cover these with smile and joy, we should also remember those people who considers Christmas as a dream that will never come true. In this country where poverty is considered common to most of its citizens, Christmas remains a fantasy – all these delicious food and gifts will just be limited to poor people’s imagination and sight, making this event an opportunity only for those who can afford.

As I am doing a list of people whom I will be giving gifts these Christmas, I was moved by a text message from the Ayala Young Leaders Alumni (AYLA) Association about the campaign of AYLA to help the people who were affected with the destructive super typhoon Reming. It makes me so sad and lonely for here I am having all these plans to make these holidays special and yet thousands of peoples in Bicol region for now aspire to breathe and to have a new start of their lives. Wishing nothing but safety and shelter for them to continue their existence, compared to most of us, getting all the chances, spending a lot and wasting money just to satisfy our wants. As Kuya Ron, mentor of the SU Kahayag Dance Troupe, who is a native of the affected region narrated that Bicol is still recovering from the destructions of past typhoons and now being attacked by another one, killing people and destroying millions of wealth and properties. Have we ever considered these events as we prepare for this Christmas…. It gives me the feeling of selfishness, because I could not stop myself from having fun, while these people from the street, from the ruins of the typhoon, and all other people who just wish to end up a day with food, and wait for another day of greater opportunity to live life in this cruel world for them.

Look at the big comparison that this nation has these days, down from the victory of Pacquiao to the preparations for the ASEAN Summit, to the destruction brought by Reming. It gives us two different sides of emotions; we should have as a nation. I could not ignore that one part of this country is celebrating its so-called greatness and on the other side mourning for the present condition they are in!

It is the preparation that matters here; we all know that this nation is prone to typhoons and other natural calamities, but still the government and each one of us are not doing anything to be ready with such event and here this summit comes, we are doing all the necessary preparations just to place this nation on a grand status leaving the poverty problem aside. Same with us Christians as we come and celebrate Christmas full of joy and fun, we tend to forget the real essence of this moment that God bestowed to us - the gift of sending His only son for our salvation. God could easily postpone His coming but because of the BIG L-O-V-E, He did suffer and save us His children.

Before we all leave this prestigious Silliman for our Christmas vacation, we should ponder to ourselves the real meaning of this celebration and how this celebration can change our lives and in what way this celebration can lead us in touching lives and making a big difference to others. In simple ways… yet coming from you heart will make this world happy and gay not only during this holidays but all through out the year as well.

Have a blessed Christmas and prepare for another year to rock on life!

The Feeling of a Special Gift this Christmas!

i know that feb, or the hearts month is still far, yet this blog about love is kind a weird but well i may apply this to the month of December, and that is Christmas!!! heheheh
well i may say that i am in the clouds this moment for yes........ i am in love! hahahah Strange coz this is something very different....very special. i am trying my best to make it special! hahahah, do not know with the other half of this relationship yet, but well i am indeed in love!

yes... you got the feeling of always having him in your mind whether you are doing some other things, eating , and all other human activities... the feeling of becoming so excited everytime you see the name in your phone, or even smiling without reasons........... please help me is this LOVE!
hahahah!

"Claudio yes........... that is Love or just Ilusyon?", said the other side of me!

well, spending Christmas with your heart and mind set in a mood of red and surrounded with the feelings of Cupid's hearts is a special bonus from Snata Claus these holidays! heheheh!

Bitaw, im so thankful that i am feeling so blessed and happy these days, aside from the theme of this blog, its just that things are going in its right place and in their right time! well all i can sya is i thanked God for these and thanks for my friends... but on the other side, some friends do not understand me...all i can do is sigh and i feel so sad about it!

well that is life, a never ending rollercoaster ride, just waiting for its fuel to dry down and tthere it will stop! i know that this is just another cycle of that ride, hope i will be enjoying this ride... even though some people in the ride throw pop corns to you! well go good luck to these people! as long as you live it right and no one is at stake for destruction, well then Go!!!!

i think i am doing and writing another article that is reall so selfish and so i need to stop! hahahah!
basta this writing satisfied my mixed feelings right now, here in Scoobys Silliman! hahaha 10:28 sa gabii!
lyde thanks for understnading! love you!

A call for budding actors

hehehello!

well its been a long time that i havent done any writings in this site. It is just that i am preoccupied with a lot of things and the preparations of my upcoming play! Yes, you read it right, i am in to my final recital play which is the Visayan Version of Lysistrata, a greek play written by Aristophanes! heheheh

Im conducting auditions and so far so good, the people are ok, but still i luck the presence of boys or the male casts. Hope all things will be well, and for sure i wil do all means to make this a big thing and be a footprints in the corners of Silliman!

Fiesta is coming soon, and i cant wait to try the humba and all the oily letson! sorry for mentioning this but, i just love these foods hahah! highblood na ni!
heheheh

well after that we will be having the intramurals, surely all will give their best to bring the bacon in their respective colleges and school. but it is so sad that the temperature or i may say the climate is becoming so destructive for it gives or causes headache and fever to some or most of us walking and enjoying the shady old silliman!

hay this writing is going nowhere!
heheh!

but guys love you all and im so happy to live life each day and each moment of my life is heartily dedicated to my Creator.mwah!

motto:

di lahat ng dugo nadodonate sa redcross- regla!

corny!

i am back to end the term with all inspirations to do the things i ought to do... mounting another play(i mean the bigger one- Musicale) for my final recital that is starting to haunt my nights... dancing with the Kahayag Dance Troupe on its annual February concert... doing projects for the uplifment of cultural and artistic appreciation as the chair of the socio-cultural committee of the SUSG...

wow! these things are not easy and i know i cant do this alone.... hahahah! hindi ako si Darna, or si Super Ingo...ako po ay hamak na bakekang lamang! hahahah

but seriously i will try all means and ways to achieve these things not for a good reputation or so but to tell something about our rich cultural heritage as a nation and as a Pilipino! I'm not running for any government positions this coming 2007 elections,but just having this passion to utilize the culture thru arts... and this passion makes me a person of great responsibility, a person with great interest in the arts, and a person who considers the performing arts as his life...

Performing arts.... taught me a lot of things! as what my mentor kuya ronnie always say... DAHIL SA PAGSASAYAW..... and so i will also use that!

i believe that in this world we are assigned in specific areas and equipped with tools to be the best in that specific area! it is just growing and being the best rose in the yard... or water lily in the pond. if give the chance to be a bird, fly high and be the best bird in the sky! that is what life is teaching me ryt now... and i am in the quest of becoming a good instrument of the performing arts....

and so with this, i am hoping things will be well... for sure with God all things will be possible... To God be the Glory!!!

see yah!!

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